Sessions with a Swim - Part I

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In time, it has come to me that the single minded devotion to do something will never be enough for me. I have to be breathless. My heart has to rip out tunes at more than 140 beats to get me high, to get me listening to the N number of ideas out there just waiting to be used as an excuse to get rich and famous. I turned to swimming just as I did to everything else in my life, a way out from the normal drudgery. I took to it like..well..for lack of a better word..a fish. And I have had awakenings, numerous sessions inside the water with just the head above it that make me realize stuff that normally I wouldn't give 2 hoots about.

So, what exactly changes as you grow old, or older. Is it the Biological answer of getting your metabolism in order? Or is it the logical answer of becoming more mature? My own views are somewhat decrepit on this subject and truth be told, I never would have even given it a thought in the course of a normal day. But well, a clear head when you swim and a lighter conscience plays tricks that you should never should have been party to.

So, my query to myself got answered in the most rhetorical way, cynicism. We believe that we can believe. And if we believe long and hard, we are actually not going to screw up. Its this belief which becomes shoddy as you grow up. The world outside exposes you to situations where you realize that 20% of everything is in your control, the rest is just out there, taking care of itself. This lack of control causes a stir and a commotion that slowly but surely starts to whither away your beliefs, your desires and molds you into someone who is expected to be rational and practical. This rationality is in direct contrast to what we were when we were kids and the only limit was the distance up to which the sky could be seen. This maturity makes us worldly wise, it also makes us better equipped to deal with even more worldly situations. But it also kills the child within. It sucks the joy out of making an honest mistake. It pummels the part of you that always wants to do something new. It raises hell on that part of your soul which has enthusiasm to last a decade. It highlights failures whereas in your childhood, a failure is just another experience that you learn from.

This children's day, look inside, there isnt much of a point in being worldly wise if this world is going to kill what made you wise :)

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